It came again as I slumbered, montages of being swept up in wild currents. They carry me through channels and cataracts. I tumble over falls. Through it all, I’m battling for direction, enduring difficult circumstances.

Yes, it’s the flood dream.

The flood dream is one of several recurring dreams in my dream folio. I don’t know when it first developed and presented but I do know it frequently returns. I’ve never been able to pinpoint its return on any cause. I’ve only spoken of it to others a few times. Mostly, it renders me thoughtful and meditative when I awaken from it.

In its first iterations, I was young and the dream begins with me exploring areas of Wilkinsburg and Penn Hills, PA, outside of Pittsburgh, where I lived about ten years in my youth. The dream was an accurate reproduction of landmarks, events and geography in its early years, more like memory than dream. Sometimes childhood friends were present.

After dreaming it a few times, the flooding began. Typically, I was in the woods, on a recognized steep hillside of dark loam. The skies darkened. I knew a storm was coming. As I hustled toward safety, monsoon rains begin. Storm sewers and creeks overflow. Water engulfs everything. Raging with power, floodwaters pick me up and toss me like a cat playing with a toy. I’m rushing past fallen trees, rocks and boulders. Periodically, I emerged from the floods to stand on a broad, white dam, where I could look out over the floods and consider what was happening. Sometimes, then, I felt worried.

But the dream’s evolution continued. While I never died, nor even felt terribly exerted by the dream’s events, I learned to navigate the waters. I was never in full control in any sense, but was staying afloat, avoiding obstacles and riding the sinuous waves.

Eventually in the dream, I began reaching a calm zone. ‘They’ were waiting for me in the calm, they being people, just people, nobody in any way special. Typically they were a man and a woman. All I fully understood in the dream was that I’d managed to exit the stormy, turbulent waters and reached a special place.

It was twilight there, and placid, a relief after the trying flood waters. Strangely, the dream identifies it as the North Pole – the top of the world. Stars are rising to light the moment. I’m invited to float out on calm black seas to reach the ultimate top of the world. It’s peaceful, restful. And so, I enter the water, which is cold, but not numbing, and float on my back out to the North Pole, where I gaze up at rich spectacle of stars, galaxies and nebulae.

Last night’s variation added a twist. As has happened more recently with the dream, the first act, where I’m young, and the skies darkened and the rains begin, was cut. I was immediately being carried by the currents. This time, the currents raced through icy white chasms and tubes. And this time, I was leading a small group, telling them what to do and urging them to follow my example. Reaching rocky or sandy banks from time to time and pausing on the journey, they were breathing hard, coughing and choking, bent over with weariness from their efforts. Each time, I let them rest and then said, “Come on. There’s more.” Then we plunged back into the water and rode the waves.

But in this iteration of the dream, when I reached the special place, I was pleased, joking with the other travelers, “Okay, you’ve gone through some tough places, but this one is something else,” setting them up to believe that, oh, no, there’s more? And so they said, with disappointed and weary sighs.

I led them into the twilight stillness where the others waited, grinning as the others explained, “You’ve reached the top of the world.” Indicating the smooth black water to one side, they continued, “Get on your back and float out, and you’ll be on top of the world.”

Smiling as my fellow travelers expressed puzzlement and skepticism, I lowered myself into the water and floated toward the North Pole on my back. And then, my fellow travelers began to follow….