They finally made it over the hump. Stay at home policies were being relaxed. Businesses were re-opening. “We’re striving to return to normalcy,” the governor, the mayor, and anyone else who was anyone said. Some were talking about parades and national holidays, “To stimulate the economy.”
“I’m looking forward to normal,” he told his wife.
“I want to go dancing,” she said.
Both wondered, is it safe? The government said it was. Maybe they’d wait, maybe…
Reading the news…Jesus…”It’s like the same thing everything day.” The weather made him feel foul. He felt cold. The sun felt weak. The day seemed shorter. What the fuck, he wondered, than attributed it to his dark moods. It’d pass in a few days.
The next day brought the awful news. He checked the numbers and saw an increase to cases. He groaned. “No. Christ, I hope it’s just a blip.”
His wife, reading something on her Mac, said nothing.
Sullenness settled on him. God, he was so looking forward to normal, to getting out of the house, to walking down the street, and then, on the whim of a smell – a burger, fried onions, whatever – to walk into a restaurant, any restaurant, damn it, and order whatever meal he wanted, and have someone bring it to him, and pay them money without worrying about their breathing and their distance and their health. Plus, yeah, he loved his wife, but five weeks of isolation with just her had seared his sanity.
The news continued. He’d heard it all before. “What the hell.” If his mind wasn’t going, then the news was exactly what they’d heard before, word for friggin’ word. “You hearing this?” he asked his wife.
Without looking up from her laptop, she said, “Hm mmm.”
Which, what did that mean? “What’s for dinner?” he asked, and then joked, “Want to go out?”
“I was thinking that we’d have pizza and a salad.”
“We just had that.”
His wife looked blank. “When?”
“Last night, remember? We joked about it being our victory pizza? I opened a bottle of wine?”
Her eyes widened as he spoke, and then she rolled them in that irritating, contemptuous, dismissive way. “Is this another one of your jokes?”
“You seriously don’t remember?”
“We didn’t have pizza last night.”
“Then what did we have?”
“We had black beans salad.”
“No, we didn’t, no, we didn’t. That was the day before.”
He stood. “I’ll prove it.” He stormed to the freezer. The pizza would be gone. There’d be no pizza in there because it was the last one they had on hand. They’d joked about that, too.
But there was the pizza, a Newman’s own.
“No fucking way,” he said, throwing the pizza back into the chest freezer. No fucking way. As a second verification, he went by the wine storage and confirmed, there was no open bottle. Like, it had not been opened. He checked the recycle bin for a bottle, just in case — he didn’t remember finishing the bottle but maybe she’d had some — but there wasn’t an empty wine bottle in the bin. Passing, he saw the cake.
He’d eaten the last piece as dessert, after the pizza. Victory pizza, victory wine, victory cake. Moving slowly, he slipped back down the hall. It hit him as he returned to the office and sat down at his computer. They were going backward in time. If he was right…he couldn’t be right.
But if he was right, they were going to relive it all again, in reverse.
“Did you find the pizza?” she asked, a smug tone to her voice.
Or, he corrected, he was going to relive it all again in reverse. She seemed completely oblivious.
“I was right, wasn’t I?” she said.
He covered his face with his palm. With a swallowed sigh, he wondered, how far back could he go?